Hey everyone!

So a couple of weeks ago I stopped off at Enola Gaye HQ in Reading to catch up with the team and to pick up some supplies for my upcoming Airsoft games! Whilst I was sat drinking a cup of tea and catching up with the team a delivery of some new swag landed at the door! Amongst the new products were the new FUG gloves.

They come in a range of colours to suit any loadout and they have cute little pistol/sight graphics on the first two fingers as a cheeky design feature.

The new FUG gloves come in 6 colours - black, grey, camo, tan, digicam and olive drab, and in sizes XS-XL.They are going to retail for around £20 and will be available from retailers now!
The prototype XS size has been sized to my hand - they are still a little roomy around the back of the hand so, EG now have specific women's sizes on their drawing board at this very moment so it won't be long until we have our very own line of sizes. It's a pleasure to work with companies that are helping us push the industry forward for women.

Photography thanks to James Murray of Enola Gaye


Hey everyone!
I've got another review for you, this time on the Airsoft Surgeon ABS Precision Grade BBs from RWA (RedWolf Airsoft)! Now as many of you know, once I find a brand of BBs that I like and perform well I'm wary of changing but at IWA 2017 I was invited to try these out and with the amazing work I have seen from the Airsoft Surgeon himself, it would be rude not to give them a try!

First of all, getting BBs in your handluggage through a German Airport is a bit of an ordeal - they are scanned, swabbed and then you in turn get swabbed and questioned. Luckily enough the lady at security was aware of airsoft as a sport and knew what they were when I explained what they were used for. Unfortunately my hand luggage was overweight so I had to leave the 0.25g bio BBs in Germany but I managed to bring back the bulk of the BBs. Remember to always cooperate fully and honestly with airport security, they're job is to keep you and other passengers safe! 

As I've been in and out of the U.K so much this year and not spent a great deal of time skirmishing in the U.K they finally got their field test a couple of weekends ago! First lets talk about the BBs themselves, they come in 0.2, 0.25, 0.28 and 0.30g weights, each bag contains 4000 rounds and dependent on the weight are affordable in my opinion. I chose the 0.25g weight as that is what I would usually use in CQB/urban games and they retail at around £9! 4000 rounds for £9 is really good value for money!

The first thing I look for in BBs is consistency of appearance! Upon opening the packet and inspecting the BBs themselves they are all (from what I could see) perfectly spherical with no visible seams and they had a high gloss finish. Reading the packet lets you know that the high gloss finish is to prevent friction with inner barrels for a higher BB velocity. It also reads that the BBs are made from ABS which is a type of polymer that keeps its shape even on high impact to minimise barrel jams and to prevent players with mesh eyepro getting injured from BBs shattering on impact. 

Sounds good to me, but how do they perform?

Field test no. 1 - Custom Ares Amoeba Octa Arms Honey Badger.

So for the field test and first range test I put the Airsoft Surgeon BBs through my brand spanking new custom Ares Amoeba Octa Arms Honey Badger in a G&P midcap magazine. During the day on the field they performed brilliantly - no jams, no misfeeds and no breakages from what I could see. On the range, these results were repeated. There were definitely no breakages on impact, even at very, very short distances.

Field test no. 2 - Action Sport Games Scorpion EVO 3A1

The second range test was performed using my MilSim RIF - the ASG Scorpion EVO 3A1! Once again the BBs performed well - no jams, misfeeds and range was no issue. Very consistent results!

Field test no. 3 - Custom G&G Armament CM16 SRL

Last but not least I gave them a whirl in old faithful - my Black Rose version 2! All results were repeated!

Overall? A very good BB! I was impressed with the consistent finish and appearance, they performed flawlessly on the field and in the range in a variety of different AEGs by different manufacturers and they are very good value for money - nice one RWA! Keep up the awesome work!


Hey everyone!

It's just occurred to me that I haven't updated the blog with all my new YouTube videos so here is a little post with our latest YouTube videos from unboxings to set up videos and even gameplay, check them out below! From next week I'll be doing a weekly vlog to let you guys know what I get up to every week as a full-time Airsoft Blogger! Stay tuned at www.youtube.com/femmefataleairsoft!


Hey everyone!

Back in November 2016 I revealed in a livestream that I had to take a substantial period of time off work (4 months to be exact) with work related stress. I had been diagnosed with Generalised Anxiety Disorder 4 years earlier but managed to beat it, or so I thought with CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy), exercise, diet and sheer willpower. In September 2016 due to enormous pressure at work my anxiety returned with an absolute vengeance and knocked me for six. After I revealed this I got loads of messages to my Facebook and Instagram pages from my followers, saying they had or currently still do suffer with anxiety, so after a long time of wondering whether or not I should post this I've decided to tell my story and how I manage it. This post isn't looking for sympathy, all of these events have helped shape me into the person I have fought to be, and I am immensely proud of who I have become and what I have achieved. It isn't going to be easy to write and might be uncomfortable for you to read in some parts but, the more people who speak out about their own mental health issues, the less stigma there will be for those who suffer. It is going to be a long post and very personal post, so sit down with a cup of tea and make yourself comfy.

One thing I also want to stress is that this post isn't to paint anyone in a bad light but there are events that transpired that are integral to this story.

My anxiety first reared it's ugly head in the summer of 2012. I was a 20 year old full time student, living with my emotionally abusive ex-partner, working a part time job and running my own small business to make ends meet. At the time I didn't think my life had that much stress in it but looking back, I'm surprised I didn't lose my shit. As my ex-partner was off work sick and with me being a student this meant money was tight so I started my own small business alongside working my part time job at a local shoe shop to support us whilst he recovered. A little background on the reason my anxiety was so severe - my relationship with my ex-partner was unhealthy, for me anyway. The constant cheating and lying made me withdrawn, paranoid and my self esteem was practically non-existent. I had no confidence and I rarely left the house. I hear a lot of people ask why women don't leave abusive relationships (be it physical or emotional) and honestly? My reason was that I felt stuck because I had been conditioned to believe that no one else would want me. The thing with emotional abuse is that it isn't sudden, it creeps into your everyday life so you don't notice it as abuse and it becomes your 'normal'. It eats away at your self esteem gradually so you eventually don't recognise yourself and by that point they have control. I can see now that the relationship had always been a thinly disguised point of stress in my life.

It was a normal day, we had argued about yet another woman who had sent me a Facebook message informing me he was seeing her behind my back and I had just finished making dinner for the evening, nothing remarkable but something I had eaten on the regular. After finishing my meal I started to feel too hot, my face/neck/arms and hands become a bright, angry red colour and I started to feel like I couldn't breathe, almost as if I couldn't get enough air into my lungs. I had never experienced anything like this so I called our 111 NHS number to get some advice from a medical professional and was told with my symptoms I needed to urgently attend our out of hours clinic. My Dad rushed me down to the clinic and I was called straight through to one of the Nurse Practitioners rooms. She told me I was most likely having a severe allergic reaction to what I had eaten and called an ambulance whilst another nurse injected me with anti-histamines and steroid injections. At this point I was terrified that I was going to die because I had heard so much about Anaphylactic reactions. When the ambulance arrived I was rushed to A&E and was kept under observation for 6 hours. My symptoms improved so I was released with steroids and antihistamine tablets to take at home. This event was the beginning of daily panic attacks and food avoidance issues. My main symptoms included chest pain, shortness of breath, dizziness, red rashes, feeling like my skin was burning, ocular migraines and visual symptoms. Anxiety affects everyone differently which is why it can be mistaken for other conditions, including allergies.

Shortly after the diagnosis I stopped eating almost completely, simply because I was terrified of having another reaction so I was referred to Glenfield Hospital in Leicester for allergy testing which included a full spectrum of possible allergens including foods, animals and substances to get to the bottom of it. After a few weeks my results came back as negative (except for my dreaded nemesis Marmite), and the consultant at the hospital concluded from the results and my symptoms that I was misdiagnosed with an allergy and that I should be evaluated for anxiety and depression. I was diagnosed with GAD and went back and fourth with my Doctor for almost a year trying to find a suitable treatment for the anxiety attacks that were happening almost daily. The first round of CBT had failed and it looked like I would finally have to start a course of anti-depressants. We had discussed managing my condition with exercise and dietary changes so this was the route I eventually went down. I cut all processed food, caffeine and alcohol out of my diet and started going to the gym with friends. Eating better and the endorphin's released during exercise slowed the attacks down to around three/four a week which was a huge relief but the main source of stress was still in the back of my mind.

At the start of  2013 I moved out of my apartment to move back home with my Mum and Dad to ease the financial pressure and to give myself some space from the my relationship with my ex partner (who had at this point returned to work but was still putting immense financial stress on myself). 

So where does airsoft come in to all of this? Well, in August 2014 I played my first proper airsoft game! As I've said in the past, I had such an enjoyable day I thought if this is what airsoft was like all the time I should play it more often. I was exercising more and getting out there and socialising. My new hobby was quickly helping me manage my stress within the week and gaining confidence as I met new people/made new friends. My Anxiety attacks reduced even further however, as many of you know in November 2014 I had a car accident and lost my graduate job as a designer and this was when my anxiety was at it's peak. As I was unable to work and with no job to even get up for I created Femme Fatale Airsoft, after scouring the internet for information for female airsofters and not finding a great deal! Femme Fatale Airsoft was something to pour my spare time into and to give me something to wake up for in the darkest period of my life.  

Femme Fatale Airsoft saved me.

I will tell you in a nutshell why. I love airsoft for many reasons - I have met some of the most amazing people through a shared love of a hobby, I get to spend obscene amounts of money on kit and build some awesome loadouts, it releases stress/tension, gets my adrenaline going and of course, in regards to MilSims etc it makes me push my physical and mental limits. I love blogging for a very different reason - when I started the blog I was a full on newb so it was a huge learning curve from learning how guns worked, to disassembling pistols to building loadouts that looked awesome and were more importantly functional! It has allowed me to build a community based on knowledge sharing, positivity, encouragement and support and has allowed me to travel the world - all this has helped rebuild my confidence enormously.

At the end of 2014 Doctor suggested a second round of CBT therapy to help me beat my food avoidance issues which I undertook successfully and my therapist was happy with how much progress I was making and how my new blogging/airsoft hobby was helping me to become more confident and happy in my own skin, but there was one thing holding me back. I couldn't pin point it until I drove 150 miles down south to play an airsoft game with people I had become friends with through airsoft forums. I was so happy, at ease and carefree that weekend I thought 'why can't I be this happy all the time?' and it dawned on me, the only stress I had that weekend was the relationship. This is when I decided to end the relationship, and immediately it was like a weight had been lifted. Combined with the dietary changes and the increase in exercise, my anxiety dropped to its lowest point in 2 years.

 I fully believe that it was airsoft and FFA that helped me gain the confidence to finally put my own happiness first.

In September 2016, I started to suffer immense pressure at my 9-5 job, I was the head of the Customer Services department and involved in purchasing at a builders merchants. Customer service is a thankless job and nothing is ever good enough for customers so to all those who work in retail/customer service, I salute you. I loved the people I worked with and my company was supportive of me but the constant pressure from customers and abusive language that I was facing on an almost daily basis brought back all the symptoms I had been suffering with all those years before. Noticing that my well being was on the decline once I again, I visited my doctor and she signed me off work for just over 4 months. I definitely needed the time to recuperate and focus on myself. This was when I made a life changing decision.

In January of 2017 I decided for my own well being (and sanity) I would quit my job to be a full time writer/blogger. This was the moment everything changed. I took this huge step despite all of the 'sensible advice' I was given. It's no secret that I love what I do and leaving all of my previous stresses behind to focus on FFA gave me a new lease of life. I decided to take this time to travel as well - to broaden my horizons and grow as a person. It has been 7 months since I made the decision to become self employed - it hasn't been easy (I now work 60 hour weeks instead of 30 hour weeks) and there have been bumps along the way in both my professional and personal life but I have come out the other side more confident, with a more positive outlook and a new perspective all thanks to this sport. 

If you are reading this and are currently suffering from mental health issues, know you are not alone. It can be hard to ask for help and you may not even know who to talk to but remember it's okay to not be okay all the time. Even the strongest people stumble. Speak to a trusted family member, a friend or see your Doctor, hell even send me a message, but don't ever feel like you need to struggle alone.

Kelly x


As far as Gucci kit goes Haley Strategic is a name that is up there, and the D3CR Chest Rig is revered in the community as one of the best chest rigs on the market and a must have for MilSim enthusiasts, but are they really all they’re cracked up to be? My friends over at Land Warrior Airsoft in Dalkeith, Scotland sent over the newest generation of Haley chest rigs, the D3CR-X for review and here are my thoughts.

The new Haley Strategic Disruptive Environments Chest Rig X has been designed to improve comfort and storage capabilities for the operator whilst still working perfectly with the existing range of comprehensive D3CR accessories. The new design means the Chest Rig has 4 rifle magazine pouches that accept both AR type magazines as well as AK 7.62 x39mm and 5.45 x 39 magazines! The new 2 Multi-Mission pouches are also a very much welcomed additions - they are super useful, for tactical snacks, radios, small med kits etc. The 4 pistol mag pouches are a versatile pouches that accept 1911, Glock, Sig, M&P, XD and other standard double or single stack pistol mags, as well as many other useful bits and bobs including handheld torches, multi-tools, and (the most useful for my own gameplay) 40mm grenades, and for me that means my trusty TRMR impact grenade and a few Enola Gaye smoke grenades/flashbangs! The rig features an all new X harness for ultimate adjustability and a full Velcro front panel that allows the rig to be outfitted with accessories, as well as assist in the full contact connection with plate carriers. One of my favourite aspects about the chest rig is the full panel of Velcro because it allows me to easily swap the front panel from my Warrior Assault Systems Recon Plate Carrier out, for the D3CR-X panel really easily - just upclip the straps, rip off the panel, attach the panel and do up the clips and the jobs a good ‘un! This is particularly useful when I am switching between playing Skirmish and MilSim Ops as the gameplay is so different a different loadout is needed.

Just like the D3CR-X’s predecessor, the rig is designed and even optimized to be super low profile and to go to work in confined spaces including vehicles. When used on its own, the rig is low profile enough to be worn fully loaded and not make marks on a normal/loose fit jacket or hoodie. When it is used on a body armour platform with a quick release system, the rig can be attached or stowed in seconds. This ultimately gives the end user the versatility to transition from low visibility to high visibility or vice versa in seconds. One of the main notable differences is that this new rig purposefully doesn’t have a dedicated radio or medical pouch and this means that regardless of the posture of the operator, all the mission essentials such as comms and med kits can remain on the end user.

Let’s chat about the quality. The D3CR-X is made from genuine MultiCam so it is tough and durable. The construction of the rig is phenomenal, as would be expected from any Haley Strategic product. The retention bungee cord grab tabs are reinforced with a rubber for longevity and for extra grip when wearing gloves and pulling the tabs over magazines which is a nice touch. Each of the magazine pouches has a drainage hole at the bottom of the pouch to ensure water can drain from the pouches on those wet game days/ops – a feature I have not seen on imitations of the Haley rigs. The X harness straps are strong and have molle systems on the front (for the D3 weapon sling) which means even though you’re wearing a chest rig you don’t have to sacrifice the security of having a rifle sling.

I have used the D3CR-X both on its own during HTIS Operation Blue Fox 2 and as the front panel on my WAS Recon PC. I do favour using the rig as a mounted panel on my plate carrier. The rig when worn on its own as a standalone piece is very lightweight and easy to wear for prolonged periods of time – this was my rig of choice for STAG duties and patrolling (when I knew I would be on my feet for a substantial period of time but I wouldn’t be engaging in too much contact but had the essentials on me just in case sh*t did hit the fan!). The X harness means the rig works really well with most backpacks - I paired mine with a Nuprol PMC Hydration backpack to give me extra space for carrying smokes and my hydration bladder. As the rig is easy to mount it was plug and play – I didn’t even have to unload it. Like I said previously, just rip off the Velcro back and slap it on the PC. The ease of this transition is perfect. My only gripe with using the rig as a mounted piece is that is does overhang the sides of my PC a tad – it doesn’t affect the use of it and it isn’t noticeable when worn but it’s just something that gets to the perfectionist in me! Haha. Used with my PC it gives me more opportunities to carry mags, smokes and the mission pouches give me a little extra something without adding too much weight or bulk.

What about price I hear you ask? Gucci kit comes with a Gucci price tag. The D3CR-X retails for £179.99 from Land Warrior so it is pricey, but if you’re an Airsofter who wants a high quality chest rig that will last you – this is the perfect option and you won’t need to buy another (unless you wanted it in another colour of course!) The D3CR-X is available in MultiCam, Coyote, Black, Ranger Green, MultiCam Black and Disruptive Grey so no matter what your loadout is there is a colour way to suit.

Overall, I think the D3CR-X is a fantastic piece and it has become a staple in my MilSim loadouts, it is pretty pricey so I would say it is a purchase you need to be sure of, however the quality means you won’t have to buy another chest rig for a long time so for me, that’s a win!

Photography thanks to Silent Kitty Photography

Hardwick, K. (2017). Haley D3CR-X. Airsoft Action. 76 (July), 32-33.

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